02 Dec Everything Is Figureoutable
I had a sooky lala moment today-in other words, a good cry! The most unlikely person brought it on. My mechanic, Mr Dave from Skids Mobile Mechanical and Dyno Services.
Don’t stress Fat Bob is ok. This runs deeper than mechanics.
Ok, so phew, that’s good news, but why did Mr Dave bring you to tears? -I hear you ask. Well, because of his understanding, support and willingness to extend his hand out to help me. Despite a couple of times me not keeping my original service booking dates!
I finally dropped Fat Bob off to him yesterday afternoon for a service. He messaged me this afternoon to report the service was done but a new rear tyre was need ASAP. Along with rear brake pads. I’m embarrassed to say the tyre pressure was also, very low. I have become neglectful and overwhelmed with things of late.
Now, believe me, I’m not looking for sympathy here so please, hear me out.
There comes a level of embarrassment and even shame when things get on top of us.
For me; it’s dropping the ball on things, feeling overwhelmed trying to recreate myself along with putting some coins in my pocket after more than two years spent recovering, adapting to and managing a permanent mobility impairment – which no matter how hard I’ve tried will not go away.
Thank goodness I am blessed with a fierce fighting inner spirit, determination and unbelievable stubbornness to live my life how I want to and do the work I want to do.
Today was just a reminder that I’m not quite where I want to be, yet! And that’s ok. I still have my dream and everything is figureoutable.
Ok, so why am I telling you all this! Because I share with you on a regular basis my whacky humour, my adventures and my posts when things are going well for me.
So why not share when things are not great! I want to keep things real. And, if I can use my stories to arouse your ‘fighting inner spirit’ not to give up on the ‘bad’ days or on your dreams then, well, I’m happy with to do so.
For someone who has been fiercely independent, I still find it a humbling experience to receive the support of others who continue to believe in me and help me succeed, when they know at the moment, I have nothing to offer in return, except extreme gratitude.
We all have our struggles. We all have our ‘bad’ days-even us Pollyannas.
Rather than fearing failure and judgement (NB those who question and judge you are not your people) embrace the vulnerability.
Putting yourself out there is where the magic begins, it brings out the best in people who want to connect with you and help, if need be.
Mr Dave has gone out of his way to ensure a rear tyre along with rear brake pads are ordered. They will be fitted on Fat Bob before the end of this week so I can continue to ride safely. I am extremely grateful for Mr Dave for keeping Fat Bob on the road so I can continue to ‘get where I need to be’.
And while I’m at it-thanks to Mr Pete for all your support so I can focus on ‘creating my empire’.
And thank you for taking the time to read my stories-the good, the funny, the bad and the ugly.